About Me

I am one really crazy girl. Though generally I'm very shy. I feel that a lot of people are jealous of me, at least that's what I like to think. I get made fun of a lot and I've never really had many friends. Right now I have one very close friend who I hope I'll keep in touch with even after high school ends. I also have at least 3 other good friends, but that's it when it comes to friends. A lot of the time I feel like most of the people in my class, or even in the school in general, don't like me because they never say hi back when I greet them and I'm always getting nasty looks. It makes me feel very lonely at times. After I moved to this school and had this problem for the first entire year, I created an imaginary friend over that summer vacation to keep me company over the summer and the lonely school years to come. In my Freshman year, my imaginary friend helped me a lot with being lonely. That same year though I did think that I had a bunch of friends, sat with them every day at lunch and had laughs. But sadly, it turns out that those same people made fun of me. Things like that happen a lot to me. I think I'm friends with some one and the next day hear them talking about me when they think I don't know. I know a lot of people don't like me. And that's fine with me, they don't have to like me at all. I just wish they didn't make me feel like they hate me even if they don't. I know some people in my class don't like me, I also know they don't hate me, but they always make me feel like it because they are always giving me dirty looks or making fun of me when I bring in my favorite stuffed animal just for fun. I mean, why not? If there is going to be one childhood toy I would never get over, it's stuffed animals and legos. So why not? Why not bring in your favorite stuffed animal for one day or two? I'm pretty sure I get made fun of for other things too. I'm pretty dang sure I get made fun of for my hair, though I don't know 100%. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, I dye my hair different and crazy colors and it's all for fun. I want to be the person that, when they are 70 years old, gets to say they have had their hair colored in every single crazy color they make.

I think that all of these things make other people jealous of me and that's why I'm made fun of. I think that with the way the world is going not many people are allowed to color their hair crazy colors like me, be as annoying and enthusiastic and honest as I can, and also like the things I like and do the things I do without getting in trouble by their parents or being judged by others like others judge me. And honestly I don't mind it as much as people may think. When I'm with my friends I'm loud and annoying and at times people my think I'm disrespectful because I laugh at times that I shouldn't. Note that I do respect a lot of things but sometimes I can't help but laugh only because I hear a funny noise and can't hold in a laugh, or think of something that was really funny before. It may make people think I'm being disrespectful of whatever it is that's going on, but trust me, I respect it as much as anyone else. I have ADD so my mind wonders a lot. Sometimes to the point where I'm there anymore. I try to control it, and at one point I was taking medication for it which was helping a lot with my wanderings. I also have some anger issues. I get really angry at things that wouldn't bother a lot of people.
I plan on moving in with my boyfriend a couple weeks after I graduate so that I can get out of the house. And if we don't get along then I'll try going into the service. Maybe through there I can get into a good college and get a good job. I want to do something with animals. I'll ether become a wildlife biologist or a vet tech, and if that doesn't work, I want to try to get into astronomy. I love learning about space. I don't want to be the one to come up with theories on how the universe was created, but just learning about the stars and planets, and discovering new wonders in space would be amazing. Earning money for looking through a telescope seem pretty good to me (I know I won't be just looking through a telescope. There is a lot more to it than that).
One of my favorite sifi series, Farscape, is about an astronaut who tried to test the sling shot theory around earth with a little shuttle and got sucked through a wormhole and ended up in a completely different part of the universe. He got pulled abroad a ship, which is a living creature, and her crew of prison escapees trying to avoid getting blown up my the universe's military. Watching this show makes me wish I was there with these aliens on the living spaceship and traveling through the universe. I think it would be cool.
Okay, so more on me: My favorite color is dark green, but any green will work. My favorite animal is a dragon, though if your looking for something more realistic it's a tie between wolves and cats. Both domestic and wild. I have a cat who my mom named Lika, but because she was going to be my cat, I kept the name Lika, but I added to it, so her full name is Lika Baby. We have two other cats in the house. One is my mom's (more my dad's though he won't admit it) named Salted Cheeze. The name comes from a song. I thought the lyrics said salted cheese, but it didn't when I looked them up so that's the joke. So we named the cat Salted Cheeze because she has a white mark that looks like a tear, the lyrics were "it's raining on salted cheeks" meaning that someone is crying, so that's how she got her name. The third cat is my brother's named Sugar. I named her because her back legs are almost completely white, compared to Lika's back legs, only her toes are white.
My favorite movies are the Lord of the Rings series. I do not have a favorite show though. Or a favorite video game. I play a lot of games though. One of them is Minecraft. I've heard that a lot of people don't like it at all, and the rest really like it. So I formed an opinion that it's one of those games that you either love a lot or really hate. I happen to be one who really loves it. It has no point to it at all but for some reason it's really addicting.
My favorite season is Autumn, as my favorite holiday is Halloween, or as the pagans call it Samhain (pronounced sow-win). Yes I am pagan. Paganism isn't just one particular religion. It's similar to Christianity where there are the different branches like catholic, Mormon, etc. Buddhism is a pagan religion for example. Another one is Wicca. Most people would think witch. They are right, however people who are Wiccan don't use magic that would normally be expected with witches because of all the stories. Yes there are certain powers and those powers I believe everyone has. They are mostly used to communicate with the spirits that are around and often to communicate with nature. Wiccans worship nature and their customs and ceremonies and rituals are based on nature and usually have nothing to do with people. I don't know what I plan to go into, but I've been thinking about joining Wicca. I am a nature person and wish that there was more that people like me could do to protect it. But it's not like we will be able to stop people from poaching or throwing their dang trash out the windows of their cars. The only way to stop that is to just not do it, but sadly its like saying bullying will eventually stop happening if we keep reinforcing it. I don't believe bullying will ever stop sadly. People don't respect things like that. It's really sad. But there is nothing you can do about it.
Anyways, back to me. A couple of things I love doing is hiking, camping, swimming, ice skating, skiing, gardening (though I do suck at it), boating, horseback riding, archery, drawing, reading, writing for fun, hanging out with my few friends, singing (as long as it's in a group or when I'm alone, I won't even sing in front of my parents), being annoying sometimes, talking to myself or my stuffed animals, making fun of movies and shows, and most of all, deep sea fishing.
Two years ago we got a small blow up raft that some people would call a dingy. But the brand that makes this boat is one of the best ever when it comes to rubber blow up rafts. The Coast Guard uses this same brand when going out in big storms and riding over big waves that some regular boat twice the size couldn't handle. We took it out to the ocean and it was awesome. The first thing we caught when we took the boat out was mackerel. We came upon a school of them and we caught over 100 of them. We had fish for dinner for about a week straight after that trip. It was awesome. I know the ocean is being over fished already, but I think that if commercial net fishing was banned, then it wouldn't be as bad as it is now. I think most of this over fishing is coming from people who use nets. Those nets collect thousands of fish in one trip whereas people fishing with fishing poles only catch a couple hundred at the most in one trip. But that's just what I think, no one will ever do anything to ban net fishing. Oh well.
Well that's all I can think of to share with you. Hope you at least liked learning about me. You know what to do if you want to know any more. :)